Pish-posh, boy, cheer up!

I remember doing that, though. I remember the conversations I'd have with myself in the eighth grade, tearing myself to bits; do it already and all of that. I remember it so well. It gets you out of a tight spot, as a quick fix, but in the long run you'll feel it (as though you don't already).

It's for the attention, though. I hid the journal, because I was going crazy; you publish it for all to see, for someone to care, even just the one. It's the attention you so desperately crave.

I'd fix you if you only asked, you know. I'd keep you off me this time, but I'd fix you right up.

I'd say I feel better now, and give you tips on how--but my road is an unhealthy and distressing one. Two antipodes, one threatening to overthrow the other; there's the Virgo/Leo I told you about. My cusp. Naturally bipolar since birth, and not a thing I can do about it.

Get them away, they're too close. You need silence, serenity, a safe, secure place to rest your head, away from the eyes of those gossiping vermin--

Where have my friends gone? Why oh why did I push them away? The regret, the agony...come back! I didn't mean it! Keep me safe, keep me warm, keep me occupied...

The Virgo: the independent, introverted, insecure neat freak. The Leo: the courageous, loyal, boisterous, and fiercely social individual who can't seem to ever tidy up.

But, enough about me. Dilly dally, shilly shally. This is about you. It's always been about you, and it always will be. You going to therapy, you having the hardest time of your life, your sheer responsibility, your desire to succeed, your unconquerable willpower to be the best that you can be!!--

all shriveling up inside you as you sit on your floor and cry your eyes out about silly old me. Oh, pish posh. If only you'd learned the secret to being around me:

Don't get too used to being too far, or too close. You'll be out of your comfort zone before you know it.

"I've figured you out; it wasn't so hard, I'd done it before..."

"Call me up when you get yourself figured out."

I do believe that I have. But I don't think that there will be any calling, on my part.